Some days are good
Some days are better
Some days I guess were easier
But not a day without a grief.
All day I was fine.
Then there's this one shot in the head and I suddenly find myself looking up again on google.
When will I ever stop finding reasons?
When will I ever find peace?
I know I can never have her back
Saturday, November 7, 2015
You are Everywhere
Wherever I go
Wherever I look
I can see you
You are everywhere to me.
I was walking on the street
Rode a vehicle
I looked out on the window
And see your face
I put on some make -up
Wore my lipstick on
I smiled at the mirror
And I saw your face
I was at the supermarket
Then Christmas songs were played
My eyes went teary
As I imagined your face
I am painting some flowers
Some trees and mountains too
And after all the colors
I name it all for you
I went to bed
I closed my eyes
I heard my heart so beating loud
It longs for you
I can't pretend
I cannot lie
I'm not okay as days go by
I miss you more each passing day
This heart of mine will always love
Wherever I look
I can see you
You are everywhere to me.
I was walking on the street
Rode a vehicle
I looked out on the window
And see your face
I put on some make -up
Wore my lipstick on
I smiled at the mirror
And I saw your face
I was at the supermarket
Then Christmas songs were played
My eyes went teary
As I imagined your face
I am painting some flowers
Some trees and mountains too
And after all the colors
I name it all for you
I went to bed
I closed my eyes
I heard my heart so beating loud
It longs for you
I can't pretend
I cannot lie
I'm not okay as days go by
I miss you more each passing day
This heart of mine will always love
You.
Monday, November 2, 2015
All Soul's Day
This is not how I perceived Halloween.
I should have you in my arms while we visit your grandmother.
I was supposed to tell mom on her grave... "Mom, look. Here's Mavis. She's so pretty right?"
I am so disheartened by the fact that I just visited you the other night.
31st of October. Brought you some very cheap flowers and a little candle.
You are supposed to be here dressed up like a little bunny, pumpkin or fairy. Or you can just be you.
I miss you Mavis.
I am praying for your soul.
Your grandma and uncle are with you. You shouldn't be sad.
I love you Mavis.
You will always be remembered.
Not just today.
But everyday.
Because I'm your mother.
It is my responsibility to protect your memory.
I should have you in my arms while we visit your grandmother.
I was supposed to tell mom on her grave... "Mom, look. Here's Mavis. She's so pretty right?"
I am so disheartened by the fact that I just visited you the other night.
31st of October. Brought you some very cheap flowers and a little candle.
You are supposed to be here dressed up like a little bunny, pumpkin or fairy. Or you can just be you.
I miss you Mavis.
I am praying for your soul.
Your grandma and uncle are with you. You shouldn't be sad.
I love you Mavis.
You will always be remembered.
Not just today.
But everyday.
Because I'm your mother.
It is my responsibility to protect your memory.
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